farewell

i deleted the original post.

reason?

coz i feel i want to do so.

so here it goes.

i need to take a break. some people just can't understand what i want. if i ask i need some space and time for myself, then you have to deal with it. Respect my privacy please. Don't make me to turn into a HULK. or maybe WORST than a HULK.

i know i'm being rude/harsh to some people. wasn't my intention. but i'm really having a hard time now. you guys don't know what i'm going through unless you walk in my shoes. And dont ask what and how and why or blablabla. I have my own reason to keep it just between myself, my alter ego and God.

i wish life is just like fairy tales. end with happy ending thou you will be tortured by your step mother or whatever. or maybe just like those in movie/dramas like korean ones etc. ha ha.

ah whatever. this is a real life. a real life is more crueler and it will scares you like hell.

and whaaaaaaat the hell i'm talking about? -.-

sheeeeesh *this isn't me* -.-

To whom it may concern,

Stop texting/contact/or whatever it is. Will you? I'm sick with it. Please understand me. if you can't just pretend you do understand me.

Wedding Dress by Taeyang

ohhh. taeyang oppa is sooooooo cute. ;p

the first time i listen to thing song, i burst into tears.

up until now, i still feel sad about it. plus, i'm on emo mode again. heh.

i've no idea why i became so emo-ish. the old me that i know wasn't like this. huhu @__@ aigoo~

btw taeyang oppa should give the ring to me T__T

instead threw it away on the floor.

and of course i want to marry him! haha *dream on!*

opsie, i almost forgot about TOP. heh heh. nvm, he wouldn't mind lolz :P

nega ibeun wedingdeureseu :P 

my heart is crying

this is what I feel right now.

I feel like want to cry.

but i can’t.

there is something holding back my tears.

and idk why i’m sad.

weird isn’t it? :(

i wonder how long i can hold this pain.

it is so damn hurt letting your heart crying. and it hurts more when you can’t let it go.

i wish i can know the answer to the question right now.

i wish there is people who understand my feeling. (but maybe myself who didn't understand my own feeling? hmm.)

*sigh*

xo.

P/S: i wanted to watch korean movies/drama coz i know i'll cry after that. haha. but i can't, now. since i have a date with 2 girls tmrw. :P

my heart aches secretly.

then just a hint of your smile

can make me fine again.

home sweet home bby!

i want something like this!~ tehee!

Shin Eun Gyu ♥ Yoon Jun Woon

anneyongg!

finally, i'm free. final is over now. hip hip hooreeey! haha.

n tmrw it'll be a 'ronggeng' mode with Een & Siti. hehe ^__^

nway, byess sweetie!

will update more later. i'm still tired. heh.

P/S : I'm now unofficially a part 4 student. OMG. I'm a senior now. ha ha. I'm old. Yes, I admit that. Not like other people who don't want to admit they are old. Using botox lah itu lah ini lah. Ok, stop. I'm starting to talk crap. -.-

Nyhoo, i'm gonna miss this semester. I learnt so many things. I've been through hard times. And not to forget, happy times too. Hehe. Life is bitter and sweet, right? ^-^ Now I'm waiting for my result. And that, aku tak nak fikir dulu. Enjoy dulu kejap! Ha Ha Ha.

xo.

"Love can be so boring."

- Vertical Horizon. -

Tatkala diri diuji.

Hmm. agak mengecewakan apabila mengetahui seseorang yang anda sayang, seseorang yang pernah merasa susah dan senang bersama dengan anda itu berubah.

Lagi mengecewakan apabila hubungan p'sahabatan itu tiba-tiba menjadi renggang. Tak tahu salah siapa, tak tahu di mana salah dan silapnya.

I used to love this two girls. Just fyi, I'm straight. But then, they broke my heart. I'm not pretty sure if they realize it or not. And i already give 'em few hints. Kalau tak sedar lagi, aku pun tak tahu la nak cakap ape lagi. One of them has changed a lot. i mean A LOT. peers' influence, culture shock.. n so forth.

Lumrah hidup kan, manusia berubah. Termasuk aku. Tetapi bergantung dengan individu itu sendiri sama ada berubah ke arah yang baik/lebih baik atau berubah ke arah yang tak baik.

And I'm not saying that I'm a good person. I also make mistakes like you. I'm not perfect. And I hope Allah will forgives me for the bad things that i've done.

And i don't like when my other friends asked me about them. you know, the 5H, 2W questions. Aku tak tahu nak cakap, nak jawab ape lagi. :(

Not just two of them, I also have some friends who are just like them. Hmph. :(

Sedih. Kecewa. Bila tengok orang yang aku sayang berubah. Huhuhuhu :(

*sigh* Ok Hana, stop being emo. -.-

Siapalah aku menolak cinta,

Yang hadir d jiwa tanpa dipaksa,

Hidup ini tidak akan sempurna,

Tanpa cinta dari Tuhan Yang Esa.

i wish.

picture speaks more than a word.

Today.

dear love.

i'm bored like H.

i want to study. but too lazy to do so. Bhaha! next paper will be on 13th and 15th. See, I'm procrastinating here. =________= Bad girl. Hoho.

"If you want to success in life, you have to study. You have to work very hard. Ok Nur Farhannah?"

Heh. :S

O yea, I'm just done with my law paper this morning. Whoaaa~ I feel soooooo relieved. So far the paper was okay. Althou i forgot the purpose of International Health Regulation 2005. Well, just few sentences of it lah. And almost 1/2 of the questions we had done them in our Test 2. The abatement of nuisances, pollution etc etc. Annnnnnnnnnnnd, I forgot them too. Well, not really lah. My answers for the final were different from my previous test. huhuhu :( But i hope my lecturer will accept it. Hahaha. Letih tangan aku karang novel!~ Dah tu penat perah otak. penat menggoreng! Hahaha!

But i'm a bit frustrated la coz my friends and I were expected that Food Act 1983 & Food Regulations 1985 will come out. Esp on the sampling procedure, labelling etc. And also how to serve order. :( But then, haihh. -.- Kalau keluar, memang confirm full marks. muehehehe

p/s: saje je nak show off pasal law aku. haha! skali skale. huahua yang penting, law aku tak same dgn ape yg bebudak law stadi kot. except IHR. hmm.

Ah ok. Stop that. I don't want to remember about it anymore. Huee~ To be frank, learning law is very fun. Hahaha. Makes you headache, staying up late at night and the day after, you will be look like a panda. lol. And I'm gonna miss it~ Huhu. But it's okay. Next semester I'll be learning law again. OHNOO! =_______="

Dear Mr. Time. Pleaaaaaaaase lah faster sikit. huhuhuhu! I really can't wait for holiday. I really can't wait to hang out with my best buddies! I really can't wait to speeeeeeend the whole free time with my family. Every time when my mom called me, she always asked "Tak balik ke?". And I answered, "Nope. Alang-alang sampai habis final la mi."

See. Walaupun dia susah nak cakap dia rindu kat aku, tapi aku tahu dia rinduuuuuuuu tu. Bhahaha! Ni baru dekat. (From home at Kch to Kota Samarahan will takes 1-2hrs more or less. Terima kasih Encik Tol! muehehe) Belum lagi kalau aku further kat Puncak Alam. Heh heh.

Now i miss home. i miss everything.

nway, later. jyaaaaa!! ♥

P/S:

Bogoshipda!! =3=

Takziah

Takziah saya ucapkan buat seorang sahabat, Awang Khairul Amzar b. Awang Yusuf @ Jaja dan keluarga atas kehilangan Ayahanda yang tercinta.

Moga roh Allahyarham dicucuri rahmat dan ditempatkan bersama-sama dengan golongan para syuhada. Moga kalian tabah mengharungi dugaan ini. Redhalah dengan pemergiannya. Sesungguhnya Allah lebih sayang kepadanya.

Allahyarham telah meninggal dunia di Mekah pada pukul 11 pagi (6am wktu Mekah) dan jenazahnya akan dikebumikan di sana juga.

Especially to Ex Collegians Batch 2007, please inform the others.

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And i'm speechless. At first, aku sms Asyraf tanya kalau khabar ni betul. Then he called me. Tak terkata aku dibuatnya. Sungguh, aku berasa sedih yang amat. Sebagai seorang kawan, aku harap dia tabah menghadapi dugaan yang maha kuat ini. Yang menghadapi lebih perit rasanya daripada yang melihat. huhuhu. :( :(

seriously, aku kesian sangat kat dia. huhu. dah la skang ni musim peperiksaan. mesti dia rasa down lagi. dah la next paper dia hari khamis ni. huhuhu. aku harap kau kuat menghadapi semuanya. huhu. :(

Benarlah, usia itu pendek. tak kira muda atau tua, bila-bila masa sahaja kita akan mati. Tetapi bersediahkah kita untuk menghadapi mati? Amalan belum cukup lagi. Kalau dihitung, mungkin dosa itu lebih banyak daripada pahala. Ya, aku juga seperti kalian. Punya banyak dosa. Amalan pun belum pasti cukup. Entah-entah aku pula yang akan dijemput nanti. huhuhu.. =/

Sama-samalah kita bermuhasabah diri dan memohon kepadaNYA agar pintu taubat itu masih terbuka untuk kita.

*sigh*

to be frank,

i freaking hate my condition right now.

*sigh*

who the heck yang culik semangat aku nihhhhhhh?!! give it baaaaaack to me. NOWWWW.!

i know, i can't give up now. I CANT. I CANT I CANT. I JUST CANT. THE BATTLE IS NOT OVER YET. AND I NEED TO WIN.

but everything seems not working very well. what else should I do? ='(

Ya Allah, bantulah hambaMu ini. huhuhu T.T

where did my spirit go? T.T

P/S:

ok, aku dah mengeluh. huhuuhu ='(

F.

idk why all of sudden i became a bit emo after i saw someone's fb.

then i had a convo with Azreen about that someone. *sigh*

ok, i admit thaaaaaaaaat i'm still err reminiscing over you? haha. thou it has been 4 yrs. plus another 4 yrs. make it 8years then. more or less lah. heh.

sometimes i wish i nvr knew you. sometimes i wish i nvr did that. but it waaaaaaaaas a long long time ago. blame my err foolishness? pwahaha. you nvr know how hurt I was before. :S

but then i moved on. and it took many years. if only and only if; i have some kind of super power to let you know how hurt I was. how i'm eager to know your condition etc. you've changed. and i miss the old you. you used to be someone that comfort and make me happy. you used to be one of people that I can rely on. used to be someone that bring the light of happiness in my life.

and i nvr know what mistakes i've done to you. and after that day, i nvr meet you again. thou you are so close to me. T.T

and i wish i can meet you and ask you abt so many things. but i dont think the wish will bcome true. =/

sigh. i shudn't be so emo-ish. indeed i dont want to think abt it. i just want to speak on behalf of my fragile heart. the heart that still has the scar on it. the heart that will be bleed again, one day.

P/S:

reminiscing ovr you is just sucks. huhuhuhu T.T

damn you D:

one two three four.

phew. i'm done with my 5th paper. 4 more to go! :P

my next battle :

Nov 8 : Occupational Safety & Health.

Nov 10 : Legislation in Environmental Health. *GASP* KILLER KILLER! DIE DIE! >w<

Nov 13 : Risk Assessment.

Nov 15 : Solid Waste Management.

huhu~ finally i can rest my brain a bit. before, there were only 1 day gap between today and the next paper. huhu~

bagai nak gila ok. hahaha!

but so far, alhamdulillah, semua nya ok. hehe.

i wish the time flies faster than usual. i want a new boyfie called mr. holiday so badlyy. heh :P

nway, happy bcoming birthday to my lovely friend kak lala! heheh! wish u success nd happiness in life dear. get well soon ok? aku nak tengok lala yang dulu. nak tengok lala yang sihat dan sentiasa ceria. huhu. ♥

later! jaaaaaa!

♥ ♥

P/S : malam ni nak serbu bilik atiq sayang. bwahaha. ;p

jiwa kacau.

okay, i'm totally p!$$ed off.

for some stupid reasons. rationally, one or two of the reasons are acceptable. (-.-)

definitely, i hate pegawaaaaaaaaaaaai kolej here. HAH. dirik sendirik yang keluarkan notis suruh register bilik esok hari 4 nov. but then pahal bukak kaunter hari tok? can't you smell the unfairness here? bias tauk sik? ok, i will stop here.

but, luckily next semester will be my final semester to be in here. tak payah aku susah² nak berhadapan dengan pengurusan yang hampeh macam haprak.

2nd. i hate celcom. celcom line kadang2 bengonggggggg. rasa macam nak tukar line je. heh. nanti bila dah betul2 terbuka hati ni, nak jadi maxis-er. haha

3rd. amat tak suka bila apa yang d plan x menjadi. huhuhu~ tapi apakan daya. kita hanya merancang. Tuhan yg tentukan. huhuhu

4th. pantang bila aku call orang, tiba2 orang tu letak terus sedangkan aku belum habis cakap lagi. i mean aku belum cakap lagi bye etc. grr -.-

5th. ok ok. lebih baik aku tidur drpd melayan jiwa yang sedang kacau. yang sedang membuak2 perasaan marah dsb. syaitan ni memang suka nak buat manusia jd mcm ni. huhu

6th. ataupun lebih baik aku makan spt yg dicadangkan oleh cniorku, ash. huahuahua. thks for ur advice bro ;)

7th. so far paper final alhamdulillah.. aku dpt jwb semuanya. hehe. 4 down, 5 to go baby!

8th. happy bila dapat tau carry mark utk OB 30+ hehe!

9th. bila lagi nak berhenti post ni?? @_@

10th. tadi permulaan post dalam eng, tapi kenapa 3/4 post dalam melayu? huhu! haizz -.-

11st. goodbye! n gudnyte!! :P